Letters Unsent- Part 1

Hi, my name is Miranda. On the outside I am simply your average wallflower. I hide in the corners, unseen to the rest of the world. Sometimes I show my true colors, but sometimes I like the secrecy. It keeps people from being able to attack me, at least on things I care about. Well, that is not necassarly true, but I like to believe it. It is one of those things that you might hear a child say "I can't see you you can't see me." And so I go around avoiding everyone, always in my own, imaginary world. It's peaceful there. In my world anything is possible. No one is cruel, no one takes pride in others pain, and most importantly, smiles fill the air. Sometimes I like to believe that I will change the world one day, turn it into this beautiful place, but I suppose first I will have to stop being a wallflower. My voice can never be heard if I don't let anyone hear it. So bear with me, dear reader, I'm letting you in, and I want you to know that you can never turn back.
I can't remember the last time I was genuinely happy. And by this I mean the loving life, loving yourself, no regrets type of happy. Not that artificial happiness over a single test or the smile you put on to try to convince yourself that you're not in pain. That, well, I get that a lot. But, then something always happens. It doesn't have to be a big thing, it may be something that will matter only for a minute, but I always find myself drowning in a puddle of my own tears. I suppose it wasn't always this way, but people made it so. They have always made it feel as if being me is the worst of sins. Honestly, I'm tired of it guys and its simply not fair. Who gave these people permission to go around leaving scars? The past years of my life I have never been able to truly love myself. From being too smart to right out ugly, there always seems to be something wrong with me. It's a feeling hard to explain. When I was in elementary school i was by far the least popular person. I never felt happy, except while doing school work. It let me concentrate on something other than those surrounding me. The down side- I got pushed around for my intelligence. I was called nerd, geek, and did everyone elses work. Worst of all, I let it happen. No one ever even knew. All my friends were fake friends... I swear that the only reason I got invited to parties was for the presents. Plus, they treated me like an outcast then too. Then, I grew up. Went to middle school, gratefully accepted the fresh start. I made a lot of friends and for the first time in my life met people like me. Problem: still not happy. That's what people don't get. It doesn't go away. For a year things died down. Then it happened again. They laughed in my presence. They called me ape, pretending I wouldn't be able to figure out it was me they were talking about. I used to write them letters and tear them up. When I was in my room, blasting my music, no one knew that what I was really doing was crying. Maybe no one even cared. At least thats the way it felt.
I'm a sophmore in highschool now. Things are better, but I always believed that it was impossible to get back what I lost. It still haunts me. Walking down the halls or sitting in class it always feels as if everyone is judging me with crucial eyes, even my closest friends. The voices taunt me in my head and so I love staying in the shadows. I spend a lot of time thinking about it- probably too much. I am just trying to convince myself that I am wonderful. Actually, all of it changed me in a way that has molded me into the loving person I am today... yet I'm still not truly happy. Until this summer I thought it impossible to ever be happy and I would spend the years tucked in a corner, writing books never read, letters unsent. But then I am getting ahead of myself... that is later in this story. For now I will leave you all with this.
My name is Miranda and I've decided to step out of the shadows, be happy, and change the world.

To be continued....

-Blogger 2

Annoyed

Hey guys! First quarter is almost over! Woohoo! So there is a lot of stuff going on this time of year and usually a lot of stress, no matter how old you are, so I figured that I should post a little humorous poem. I was doing standerized testing yesterday and it was so borin and so annoying, plus not everyone had testing so the noises coming from the classes around us made me want to rip off my head. Here's the poem I wrote about it. Hope you enjoy!

Annoyed

 

Everyone gets annoyed I suppose

every once in a while

but this, it's just not right!

this is simply vile!

noises in my ears

banging loud and wild

but when the silence then does come

my thought are in a hopeless pile

where is the middle ground?

where can my mind be safe and sound?

this place does not exist i fear

at least not on this day

i think i will explode

and so i wish you all farewell

i get annoyed so easily

i hope that no one can tell.

-blogger 2

A Quote

When you feel the love, when you breathe it, you die to know if it is truly there and when to let it go.
-blogger 2

The Domino Effect

The domino effect. It isn't just a game. The domino effect plays a major role in our lives every day. If you don't know how to control it then, well, all of the dominos will just keep falling. This can be both a good and bad thing. Sadly, the bad is the usual. For example, there are always criminals roaming the streets. Say there is a robber. The rob a jewlry store from top to bottom. Then they get arrested, causing a police officer to miss his son's birthday party due to the chase. Also, the owner of the jewlry store has hardship with long nights sorting through everything that was stolen. It turns out the robber dropped a ring while in the chase. That ringg was custom made and was supposed to be an engagment ring for a young man's love, who will now either have to plan a new way to ask or settle for a different ring. The dominos keep on falling and falling, it isn't just the robber who was affected. So, whenever you are doing something that you know may not be right, don't just think of you. Think of all the dominos and decide.... is it really worth it?
Of course, we can use this knowledge to our advantage. We can spread joy too. I heard one of my teachers talking about a story the other day and figured I would challenge all of my readers to do it too. Do 3 good things for 3 different people today. Whether it be simply holding the door open or complimenting someone who you have never talked to before, the results will be massive. They will then do good deeds for 3 more people because of the kindness you had towards them. It goes on and on and suddenly we have taken charge of the domino effect.
-blogger 2

Sirens Song

Hi everyone! I hope all of you had a great week because I did! Well this post will be different from other post because this is a song that is very much stuck in my head an i love the lyrics!!! Its from a Disney show and I watched it over and over to get the lyrics right (I am such a nerd) I hope you love the lyrics as much as I do!

SIREN'S SONG

Inside is the dark,

The dark is inside,

I run out of room,

No places to hide,

 And all I can do...

Is drag you into...

Your Heart is mostly Meat!>

Your Heart is mostly Meat!>

In the Da-Da-Dark,

The Da-Da-Dark,

It was you that I knew,

It hurts when I care,

My red heart is blue,

And that just aint fair,

The heart that's in you ...

Is meeting me there...

Your Heart is mostly Meat!>

Your Heart is mostly Meat!>

In The Da-Da-Dark...

OK here is a Guide on how to read the Lyrics:

*the , means you take a small pause

*the ... means you take a long pause and you say the last word longer than it is for ex.

 instead of reading do you read doooooooo

*the !> means you say the last word louder slower and longer like above

Thx for reading this everyone! Have an awesome day

Btw please leave a comment on saying what you want or don't want on the blog thx!

-Blogger 1

Shout out!

Shout out to our first commentor! Thanks so much! Really means a lot to know that someone out there hears my voice! Keep commenting and if you have any ideas just tell me and I will totally write about it!
Thanks so much to our fans!
-Blogger 2

Wonder

Sometimes I sit and wonder
what lies beyond these walls
i wonder if the people out there
hear me when i call
i wonder if i truly matter
i wonder if they would helo me when i slip and fall
sometimes i sit and wonder
if it is worth it all
is it worth the pain
that pokes me every day
is it worth the words
that i hear everyone say
is it worth the anger
that makes me run away
we ask oursleves these questions
that spread so far and long
that whisper in our ears
that play out our life song
sometimes i sit and wonder
if it is worth it all
i wonder ever day
i winder all day long.

Casino

The flashing nights,
The racing cars,
The faces of fright,
The deserted bars,
The freezing wind,
The frost on the street,
The city of sin,
The city of weep,
The cigarette smoke,
The urge to pay
You will soon end up broke,
Unless you walk away,
Its a terrible city,
That tricks you to pay,
Its such a pity,
That no one walks away.

Thank you everyone for reading that! remember that we need feedback from all of you fans! so be sure to comment and ask us for anything to write about! have an awesome weak!
-Blogger 1

Night and Day

The sky is full of wonder
the sky is full of pain
the sky is full of adventure
the sky is never sane.

the sky is blue and bright
full of rainbows and great might
except for in the darkness
of the never ending night.

there you find mere specks
of the light of reality
there the sky is dark
there you cannot see.

we stay awake in the light
because of only light we know
always sleeping in the dark
hiding the things we never wish to show.

but if you lie awake
you lie there in the night
you look into the stars
you will find great fright.

fear of the truth
that will never go away
fear of the secrets
hidden far away.

for the night is a treasure box
waiting to be found
the darkness is a secret cave
in which your heart makes sound.

the light is just an image
never false nor true
but the darkness holds the truth
about both me and you.

so lie awake tonight
i challenge every soul
lie awake tonight
and let the darkness steal your soul.

-Blogger 2